Thursday, October 14, 2010 @ 12:37 AM

neverending apologies to not updating.

holidays are not holidays.
its like a celebrity bootcamp. well not celebrity but definitely boot camp
let me show you my routine for the whole day

day 1:
0630 wake up
1000 leave home for lunch outside
1400 dance training for non-SIP students
1700 travel to sengkang
1830 start practice with instructor(choreography blahblah cleaning up blahblah)
2315 take 372
2340 take 109 and officially leave sengkang
0000 reach home
0230 sleep

day 2
just copy and paste from the above

what an active lifestyle i have
if its not these, we would be sourcing materials to do costumes, accessories, outfits, or tailors and crack our heads at costume designs.
oh ya. still got making of props and constant topping up of ezlink card

and this time round, dancing on stage is not the same anymore.
expressions more, remember coordination, position, steps and most importantly
WHICH CAMERA IS SHOOTING
you have to be like constantly looking out for which has the red light.
plus after dance, cannot go straight off stage. the host will say something and we have to respond or whatever...
goshhhh

Dhool 2010 will be telecasted on 16th oct 7.30pm vasantham central
meanwhile if u tune into that channel as and when, you may get a glimpse of us!!!!

must support us yeah!!!!

TP UNIFIED!!!

from now on i will try to update when are the recordings.
tickets are complimentary.
but the qualifying rounds tickets are over. LOL...oops didnt tell anyone i was having this thing on.
but from now on...will update
so if you guys want the tickets, msg/fb/email me yeah? anyway to contact me luh HAHA

the show will be hosted in tamil
venue: mediacorp
time: tbc
its okay if you dont understand. just come down to get a feel of everything and enjoy the dances also can!!

pssst mad hungry now. but its okay i shall just go and sleep.
gosh flu just passed and now im losing my voice. OH NO
andand went to watch BURIED with 3 other UNIFIEDS just now...
haha basically the whole show is about this paul something guy in a wooden box, underground, him making lots of phone calls, scribbling lots of phone numbers and notes here and there, banging on the torch to make it work a million times, lighting up his lighter, torch or whatever that emits light thats all.

casts
1 male actor(ryan reynolds)
2 calefares one of which dies after 5 secs of going on air but has her voice played again for 5 secs and another one which is so blur i couldnt make out was he a pole? or a man
dozen different voices which i think are the same few people faking accents

props
1 wooden box
1 zippo lighter
1 hip flask
1 mobile(cool one in arabian language)
1 lousy torch which can switch from yellow to red light
1 knife
1 pencil
1 pen which he discovers quickly is useless (it ran out of ink)
2 glow stick
1 snake(rattle perhaps)
2 strips of cloth
LOTS OF SAND

if people talk about ryan reynolds next time...i will remember him as,
ohhh the guy who was in the box

imagine for the whole movie,
you just see him struggling in a box
how engaging can this be?

true, there were some good parts like how he did not give up hope till the very end
but seriously,
i paid 7 bucks to eat oreo icecream flavour, fairprice bbq flavoured potato chips, watch a guy in a box and checked my hp for the time, twice
which i NEVER did on all my movie trips
but the other 3 UNIFIED though otherwise.
they thought it was touching
esp the part where he was having a "last" phone call with his wife telling her he will be fine and im going to be home soon. with all the i love you stuff,
i was literally rushing them to finish their convo so we could continue watching the rest of the movie.

then nana told nandhini this about me...
if her husband were to call her and tell her he will be home, she will say this
: oh. im so sorry dear, left my phone at home when i went to the market. huh? you be home late? okay love you bye

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA goshhhh hopefully that will never happen HAHA

but nope...
im not going to say the ending.
HAHAHAHA

bye!!!
0153

Monday, September 13, 2010 @ 7:45 PM

well, this post was supposed to be written on 9 sept. after my last paper

to beena: HAHA had a wonderful time "studying" with you and david and leelin
not exactly studying together coz we were at different benches HAHA hope you enjoyed the stress management tips i have for you!!
1) think of me
2) drink milo
3) think of me again (it always works)
HAHA and yup i really appreciated that you told me leelin said i had the smart face HAHA and that i was cute/pretty (you forgot HAHA) but the funniest was he never expected someone like me with my personality would actually study HAHAHAHAHAHA
thats hilarious. but it certainly motivated me to give all my best in everything i do. help me thank him if you ever see this post kays!! had fun eating with you in the insect infected prata shop where we kept moving our table around HAHA,
and all the moments where i managed to shock you HEHE
lunch from engine with you guys
taking bus 15 together
and laughing at my crisscrossed marked legs derived from lying on the benches.

to jiamin: is it really that obvious who i was talking about in my previous previous post?

Labels: beena

@ 7:22 PM

emo post coming up

can someone just tell me to hang in there and not give up?
now that exams are over, i have loads of free time to let my small mind wander about.
just hoping no re-run of subjects or supp paper.
emoemo now.
listening to all the songs you brought into my life.
songs i would never know if i never met you.
i kind of regretted wishing for all these to even happen in the first place.
wishes were never meant for such things
how i wish i could just forget everything
or at least learn how to let it go

i've moved on from the previous feelings.
and i don't want to ever go back there again.
for fear that things would repeat itself or even continue from there on.

well, i know i really should talk to you about all these.
but would you even care? would you even show that you care?
pointless. its all pointless. its just like a birthday candle slowing burning itself out.
theres nothing you can do about it. either you let it die out itself or you just blow it out.
what's the use of pretending i don't care and i am happy the way i am?
when in fact i care a hell lot and im dying inside bit by bit
the only one going through all this shit is me.
and to think that i am the one who walked into this pile of shit myself.

getting myself all worried and uptight just knowing you got a cut,
and you not giving a shit about anything else really shows how much you care
even if the care he shows is fake and that he has a motive, at least i could feel his concern about me.

letting you certainly has way more advantages that holding on to that hope that something might happen.
at least im freeing myself.
of all these confusion, drama, misery and heartache

maybe, maybe im better off like that.
i just have to take the first step.
putting you away.
its gonna be hard.
theres gonna be tears and frustration
but isn't all these the process of moving on?

i've held on for long enough i know.
if something was meant to happen. it would have happened long time ago.

i dont care if you would read this.
although i wished you would.
but even so...would it change anything?
would you even care?

Tuesday, August 31, 2010 @ 3:21 PM

this is real mad. can you believe i haven't blogged for so long? hope poeple won't stop visiting..
nothing much has actually been going on.

1st: just went for my teeth extraction.
haha 5 to be exact.
actually is i dont like them so i went for the extraction HAHA
no luh. coz 4 is my wisdom tooth. then the 5th is this extra tooth near my sinus cavity. the doctor say even if i dont remove them, they will grow out sooner or later so might as well bear the pain altogether.
so was i was in desperate hunger for close to a week already.
great dieting plan uh.
so for those who want to slim down don't hesitate to extract some tooth.
HEHE gonna post up alot of pictures soon...emphasise on the soon.

2nd: i finally know who really cares about me.
through this tooth extraction period, it is as clear as spring water who cares about me. well at least who shows that he cares about me.
im terribly afraid that my feelings will stray. its just that easy of the things you do. or rather, not do. could it be that your way of showing concern is different? i dont know. but it has somehow affected my decision. insensitiveness. you have to change that part of yours. other that that, i don't think the rest of you have flaws. i really cant make the decision with you acting like that. uncaring. whereas on the other hand, someone that i once hated to the bone actually took the initiative to ask me how is my mouth. accompanied me to message and chat on the phone although there was a limit to how i could talk and even offering solutions to my discomforts and problems. he was willing to hear me talk. it is getting more and more obvious of my use and importance to you. do you think that by calling to chat often is going to help anything? its just a phone call. i have told you about my insecurities. but yet, it seems futile. such that i dont think by talking to you its gonna help anything. you dont even pay attention to what i have to say. whats the use of saying then? i have accepted many of your traits and habits. shouldnt you at least take time to understand me? i dont think you even know much about me after all these years. its really pointless for me to keep on writing.

3rd: exams are coming
as usual, haven't start studying. musn't procrastinate already. but everythime its suitable to study, i cant study. and whenever its an inappropriate time to study, i find it strangely conducive to study. and now im hungry again. hope for the best.

4th: IM REALLY HUNGRY

5th: watch vampire diaries.
goodness. finished watching last month. but whenever damon salvatore's (ian somerhalder) scene comes on i could just melt. his eyes are like ahhhhhhh and his abs.... goodness can anyone get any hotter? HAHA stefan salvatore(paul wesley) too!! his tattoo makes him so complete and hot too HAHA i know. so not me right? but they are really like.....HAHAHAHAHAHA thats enough bye!!

Monday, July 12, 2010 @ 11:43 PM

i have 3 things to talk about in this post.

1)as august draws near,
i have to make a decision.
i really have no faith in it. i feel that im so much better off alone in my current situation. why get myself into problems that might eventually ruin our friendship?

this describes most of my emotions now.

wish i could let go, but i just cant seem to get over you

I LOVE MUSIC. they always seem to describe what im feeling

i missed my chance
had a way of looking you up. but i let it go. if we had affinity, we would definitely meet again. we shall see, we shall take a gamble


2)TPIDG is thinking of taking part in Vasantham's signature group dance competition DHOOL this year. registration is now open. our instructor strongly encouraged us to get more exposure on tv. only 8 dancers are chosen. im one of them. should i take up this opportunity?
if i discuss this with my mum, she would definitely say no. but it has been one of my many dreams to take part in a national dance competition. but i know i have to conc on studies. but studying is soooo BORINGGG
should i take up this opportunity in secret? yeah. i should.

3)SELLING

Rimmel London Sexy Curves Waterproof Mascara
Long-lasting. No flaking or smudging. Water-based formula is gentle on lashes. Quick and easy to remove with regular eye makeup remover*. 001 Black. 8mL
UP $18.90
Selling Price $16.00
recently bought it but didnt like it. barely one week old. hoping to sell off asap as its taking up space in my home. price is negotiable. superb condition. used only once. thats how i realised it wasnt my type
interested parties contact me at frenzy_angel11@hotmail.com
*as stated in website

signing off, 0015

Wednesday, July 07, 2010 @ 9:38 AM

im such a kind soul,
just now as i was making my way to AS,
saw this girl standing outside a taxi and had this hunch we were going to have some form of interaction.
true enough, she approached me to see if i had a change for bucks.
i told her no.
and then my smart brain found a solution.
i told her i would lend her 10bucks first and i would leave my contact number with her. so she could pay me back.
i trust her.
so its up to her conscience to contact me and pay me back now. coz i dont have her contact number. HAHA
its really so RANDOOOMMMMM
lets hope she does. i got a feeling.......shhh cant say it out. if not it will not be true.
i have a feeling i will meet someone new today.
lets wait and see.
i mean theres psycho lec today, anything can happen.
signing off, 0945

Tuesday, July 06, 2010 @ 12:52 PM

it seems like im still doing fine without you. but can i really?
maybe for the time being.

Friday, July 02, 2010 @ 1:14 PM

today was a fine and neutral day until i saw XXXXXXXXXXXXX
started all my pms.
what the hell.
tsk. shall ignore her presence yes. i have much much better things to do.
like facebook.
signing off, 1315

Thursday, July 01, 2010 @ 9:39 PM

dont you have facebook?
its a pain to wait for the add.
i really cant find you. please hurry up and find me.
could this be the end?
please dont let it be

我的心, 有那么被动摇了一下,
拜托你, 赶快把我拉回来. before its all too late

@ 9:31 PM

this road just isnt worth it if the user isnt even sure of its usage

Wednesday, June 30, 2010 @ 5:21 PM

emo post coming up...WEEEE BOOOOMMMM!!!!

ya. i dont think its the pms this time round.
but im starting to have doubts.
it just so happens that when you are not active in my life,
alot more people are.
i've started to question myself again.
is this what i really want?
i saw this coming a long time ago.
but at that time, you were there to give me the strength and assurance to carry on.
but now?
i can hardly even feel your presence.
if this is making me so stressed up,
i dont see the point in bringing it up to the next level.
why not just let everything stop here when its not hurting so much.
free us both to have greater freedom.
i wasnt meant to walk down this road anyway.
i thought it could be just me being paranoid.
but even my mum could sense it. she told me that she wouldnt wish to see me walk down the same path that she did.
if i were to give an analogy for the situation that i am in now,
its would be that i see a pile of dog poo on the floor and yet i find something to trip over so i could fall face flat in it.
dont you think things would be much much simpler if i just walk round the poo?
the poo will maintain its shape and wont get hurt
neither would my face.
isnt this much much better for everyone?
i think the problem,
really lies with me. i am unwilling to try. i would say that its because of the past that is making me wary. but now, i would say these are all bullshit, excuses.
im just putting them together so i could complete the puzzle piece. which would just fall out minutes later because they were never meant for each other.
you get what im trying to say?
i dont care if you ever get to read this.
i dont care if you ever understand what im blabbering about.
im just seriously considering to end everything off here.
all my hopes and dreams, lets just let it disappear.
i know it will hurt like shit.
but i believe both of us will get over it as soon as we meet better ones.
you said i was the best you ever wanted. i never saw myself in that way. thanks for making me feel special.
we've had good memories. thats all i ever wanted.
sure if really things go along like how i would plan it to be,
things would get awkward.
maybe not for you, but it will for me.
will our friendship be ruined?
i dont want that to happen.
looking back at the posts i typed,
im glad and shocked at the same time
glad that i had it recorded down.
shocked that i actually ever felt that way.
i guess people do change.
im afraid of opening up because im afraid someone would use that against me
i dont want that to happen again.
there are times i would feel that i cant live without you, constantly thinking and missing about you.
but there are also times when i would just treat you as a best friend of mine.
what is this supposed to mean?

signing off, 1743
i dont think this is love

Thursday, June 24, 2010 @ 3:24 PM

its hard to say im not affected by it.
im not going to deny it either.
i am affected by it.
but i have to accept it anyway.
just learn to grow up.
i cant live in the eyes of a child all my life.
there will be a day where i will mark the start of my life.
the real start.

signing off, 1527

Sunday, June 20, 2010 @ 3:02 AM

guess what.
what.
im hungry.
so?
and i just brushed my teeth.
guess another what.
what.
im still here HAHAHA. okok really off now. bye 0303 ooo nice number HAHA

@ 2:44 AM

oh man, you silly boy.
getting touched all over just because i waited for you on fri and today
andand, calling me at 0000 plus to prank me. HAHA say even if you got problem, it will be missing me LOL dots
andand, calling again at 0100 plus and was shocked i was still awake.
you cute luh LOL
and to repay me for my kindness i have to that and that? LOL. go hug a tree then. its eco friendly HAHAH
kay. i want sleep sleep.
nites!
and and i love you, you, you, you, you, you, and you. [readers] HAHAHAHAHA
<333

signing off, 0258
ooooo all the numbers are in a line on the keypad. LOL nite!!!

Friday, June 18, 2010 @ 1:44 PM

burp.
im back again.
zzzz moodswing. kinderbueno doesnt help already.
OH YA!!!!
must remember to buy kinderbueno later.
mm correct.
haha. in library now. even more dots
havent select the module thingy and my cds. LOL
just now was comm meeting. loads of stuff to do.
ARGHHH
kay. bye.

signing off, 1401

Thursday, June 17, 2010 @ 2:26 AM

hey there.
hahaha i dont know what made you think i would get mad at you if you told me that.
but im glad you told me you smoked yesterday.
seriously, i am
at least you told me. rather than hide it from me.
true, i know quitting is hard. but i know you can do it.
its not as if im telling you to stop immediately. but slowly does it.
the last time you smoked was in april and now is like what. 17 june. from april till 15june is really a long time.
keep going...i will support you.
theres no use in saying sorry to me. you should say sorry to yourself. because its your body that you are harming. not mine. i dont mean it in the harsh way. but yeah, i hope you get it.
and yeah, you were right. im doing all this is because i care about you and you know that.
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!!!
i will be waiting for the day when your lungs are officially a smoke-free zone.

andand, you this dumbdumb
next time don't think i will call you.
coz i know you today have work. so im not disturbing you.
who knew you took off to go out with me but thought i would call?
LOL.
yesterday so funny!!
you were calling me and all i did was
mmmm ahhh ohhh all the way through HAHA
then you keep asking me to go back to sleep and saying sorry LOL
haiya i really very tired already. nites..^^

signing off, 0300

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